Kevin here!

 Its 9:12 pm of Apr 13 2025. Yesterday I didn't have test and today I had one. Today's test was really bad. Again that situation happened in which I just get tired of solving questions and stop solving them. This might be due to so many confusions in the questions I keep on attempting ang trying to recall the concept and after I get enough underconfident, I stop solving further and accept that I can't score 600 or above in this test so I should better not try.  I was solving chem after being done with bio, when the idea of joining library again struck my mind. All in my family wanted me to join library again, for many days now. I had told them that I would do it when I get tired of trying things myself. Today was that day. I started thinking if I dont join library now, NEET 2025 may go bad (only about 20 days or less left). I was and am enough confident of myself that if i give just 1 week or even less but with full power and discipline to study, I will start getting atleas...

 It is 12:25 pm of 11 April 2025. After my last post, I had 2 tests. Both went very bad and I left questions. What scares me more now is I am only left with 11-12 tests after which my 2 year long NEET journey with my current coaching, all memories, marks, will end. All this time I postponed getting good marks in test but now its time for me to change otherwise I will lack confidence in NEET too. Just 19 days for May to start. Yesterday I had bad dreams of the exam and marks and even when I'm not sleeping I am thinking about it. To add to all these problems, my one closest family member keeps fighting and using words she shouldn't about other members. This will continue forever. Entire human civilisation is built like this. I am bad. Everyone is bad. No one is efficient. No one is good. 

 Good morning it is noon of 8th April 2025. Yesterday I had my just another NEET mock test. All the tests I gave from Jan covering 11th+12th were not so good for me. I could never score 600+. Since I am Fresher, I had to give 2 months roughly to boards too, in which I am not sure what result I would get. I doubt if I'll fail in boards. Anyways coming to NEET, as I stated, I didn't score well all throughout these months which disheartened my family and myself. I don't remember how my 28th March test went, but somehow I had scored 630 in it. I came to know the result much later. I also had gone to a PW event in my city a few days ago. I got fever, cough, etc. due to it (or maybe due to something else). I gave myself the excuse of the fever to not score and give a few tests so well.  Yesterday, I watched Iron man armoured adventures at 12:40pm. It has become a bad habit now. I watched some other things before it yesterday. I started getting ready for the test I had yesterday (...