Kevin here!

 Its 6th may 25 and 8:41 am. I came to Library. Weather outside is good but inside me is bad. I am sad. I have many thoughts inside which I want to express but I won't.  My NEET 25 went verryyyy bad. I was disheartened by the time 30 minutes of exam were left. Many reasons for it. I was slow from the start because I had "its NEET" in my head so I was re-checking each answer of mine. I was trying to hurry up and knew I could be late. I also wanted to give time for OMR filling because if I make a mistake in it, i would be very sad. Now I am a dropper. cant believe it. Since the last 2 days, I have these thoughts coming in mind periodically:- "That was my chance. Why did I not give my 2000% ??? How can it go bad? How can I be dropping? It is such a shame. All that I had expected will take atleast a year more now. How would be the environment around me if I would've managed time well and able to score atleast 600? Everyone would be so happy at home including myself. ...

Its 12 pm of 3rd May 2025. Tomorrow's a special day: THE NEET DAY. What have I been doing for last 3-4 days? - I was just giving online PW tests after my offline coaching tests got over. Surprisingly I am scoring more in these tests than offline. I do also take care of time because offline NEET would require me to give some extra time to OMR filling, etc. My scores are around 650 except for one day 615-20 something because I got panicked a little.  What am I feeling? - Right now I think I can do so many things. I would've done many things if it was a normal day but I won't do because people say you should focus more on your mental calmness on the last day than on concepts. I am always thinking or trying to think about those 3 hours. I won't think anything negative. I will stay positive. The test I gave yesterday was easy and I got 672. When I saw what mistakes I made other than leaving 2 questions unattempted, I realised out of 8 mistakes I could have easily avoided 5, ...

 Its 28th Apr 2025 7pm (exact). Yesterday I gave my last mock test in my offline coaching. Like some of the previous tests it went good but not enough to be happy about. I think I would get around 650. I don't calculate my marks at home now.  Yesterday, I thought in the morning I wont get free time that day since I had test. I came from library and before leaving library, I had decided to complete some of the topics before going for the test but I couldn't do that because like usual I got distracted used social media for 30 to 50 minutes. Since it was a Sunday I left the home at 1:20 ig 10 minutes early than other tests. The weather was dark, Sun light was not clear, it seemed that it would rain which actually happened while I was giving my test. I could see rain and thunder right in front of my eyes during the test because I sat this time at the front most seat. The seat was defective coz the desk on which I was writing was too high. I didn't want to leave my place and hav...