Kevin here!

Its jun 26 2:03 AM My way of thinking about cracking NEET is I don't want what many others want that is crack NEET somehow and get a decent Govt college. I want to dominate it, though I don't prepare accordingly for most of the times. Till now I feel I've 2 choices - Be among the Best or don't get any college. This is also the reason why I don't do good in many tests and even NEET 2025. I thought of my regret in NEET 25 which I'll have if in lack of time I do questions with good speed but end up leaving some questions due to lack of time. Thats frustrating. So I thought I should give myself another entire chance that is a drop.  Situations at my home are temporarily stable for 2-3 days now. I have been wasting my time in these days. If the same feeling strikes in NEET 26, I will helplessly have to score for a bad mbbs college. I dont want that. I want the best or nothing. I don't know whether this thinking is right or not. I have it. But I think its not a pr...

 - a boxing and dumbel room - automatically closing and opening windows - door lock 

 Hello future Kevin, I hope you are atleast 6-7 years older than me. So it would be later than 2032, Gosh when I see 2030 something I think of the possible future with AI and robo all around. Metro in my city would be fully established by then.  Its not like Im here to talk of these general things. There is a pain in my head and in the heads of every one in my small family. I am writing this so you never forget all that happened after your first NEET attempt.  Dear future Kevin, knowledge of Gita and other great spiritual texts is whats keeping me from bursting into plethora of emotions. I dont want you to forget what type of mom you got. I guess and hope I would have started earning and be powerful at that time when you read this. Use your power to do everything your mom did to the family. Dont think of any justice then, I repeat, DO NOT!!! She's not worth your sympathy or just attitude, like my dad says. I gave my time and all sympathy I could to make her understand wha...

Its 9 June 10 pm. I have an amazing family.

 Hey its Kevin. It is 9 June 2025, 5:25 AM morning. I don't usually wake up so early, but today I did because of something big that happened in my house yesterday night. I'll talk about it in some other post. In this post I will be talking about, as the title suggests, my life/routine for the first month after NEET.  Lets start with when the invigilator took the NEET paper away from me. I went out of the exam hall, met my mother, took a train, came to my home with one bhaiya (brother) and mother. The next day and night went bad not much talking to anyone. Wait for some time, I thing there's some issue with my family rn. Coming soon... Hello its same day but 10 PM. You know why I left writing here? A big issue! I won't talk about it here.  So after NEET, I planned many things, I could none of them. I basically turned into an overall loser who doesn't value time. I still am the same person. I wanna improve.

 I get many small thoughts sometimes but from now I will be noting it down here with date and time:- 7 May 25 |9:15 AM -   We all make mistakes. But these days making small or big mistakes has become so common that people including me do not care the next time and repeat the mistake. All the time someone keeps mistaking. What is the solution then? Being careful is the only one I can think of now. But I don't think that's enough. Let me give an example. 4th May I jad my NEET UG but seeing that I would not be able to score high, I left or slowed myself while regretting wasting a year and getting sad there. This had happened in some mock tests too. If I would have had a problem solving approach, I would be able to kill all my distracting thoughts at that time about my fam, my future, etc and give my best in even those 10-15 minutes in last. This was a mistake. Yesterday my mom trying to turn off a switch attached to another switch (my computer's, and I was watching a movie i...